No season is wasted

No season is wasted.

This is what I believe. Every season we walk through has purpose. Whether it’s an easy season or difficult, there’s always growth happening.

Some seasons are tougher than others; throw Covid in the mix and it can be just brutal.

It’s interesting what this pandemic is teaching me. Things I didn’t know about myself are coming to light, how I cope with change being at the top of the list. Change, I’m learning, is difficult for me, especially when there is so much it.

Being a momma to a three-year-old and a two-year-old during a pandemic is one of the most challenging changes with which I’ve dealt. The lack of play-dates and park days, friend-dates and mastermind days, explaining to my three-year-old why everyone’s face is covered, and the constant worry of one of us getting sick is so hard.

Things are slowly beginning to settle into a new normal. There are good things to come out of this experience, too, like being able to spend so much time with my family and focus on their needs, having more opportunities for writing, and seeing more clearly what I need, and being more aware of the things for which I am grateful. My circle of close friends is at the top of the list.

There are things, like shopping, that I will happily continue doing from the comfort of my home - thank you Instacart! But after a year of having to find alternative ways to obtain items, it has become too easy to stay at home and avoid being out in public. I find myself not even wanting to leave the house now. But we are not meant for that. It’s unhealthy for us as adults and it’s certainly not good for my boys to be stuck at home and isolated for so long. They’re happier outdoors, and around people! And who doesn't feel better after some fresh air? After an hour outside, my kids are completely different; happier and kinder.

Just like my kids are happier being outside, I am happier with their play-dates and my friend-dates. Without these, I lose myself. Being a wife and mom is a good thing, but losing sight of myself certainly makes me grumpy and nobody deserves a grumpy wife or mom.

God knew what he was doing when he started me down the path for my small business in herbal teas. I believe he knew it would be the outlet I need

ed during this time to better myself and strive to be healthier, physically and mentally, and maybe to help others along the way as well.

It is TikTok (another great thing to come out of this pandemic), of all things, that really is nudging me out of the last of my Covid-isolation-induced fog and reminding me that the season I am in is short and, even if it’s hard, these moments needs to be cherished because 0 to 4 is something special and it is, oh it is.

Watching them learn and grow feels like magic. Their imagination and creativity is inspiring, and a reminder to me to step outside of my own box. I tend to forget that imagination is limitless, especially when it comes to my fiction writing and personal growth.

But there needs to be balance. Consistent balance is one of the hardest things to find and keep . Being a wife and a mom and running a small business NEEDS balance and I’m thankful to my boys who are here to remind me when it’s time for them. Even if they don’t tell me in the most subtle ways LOL.

Every step I take with my business, no matter how big or small, every song I sing with my boys, every word written in my own book, it’s all growth.

Because no season is wasted.